It has been like…zillion years ago since I wrote my last post here. Not that I have not had anything to say, I have been having a lot of things in my mind, may be a bit too much…and the thing is: I think my MIND got CONSTIPATED. I could not get these things out of my mind. Everything I do feels so wrong. Everything I do could not express what I think.

I don’t like my own cooking.

I don’t like my photographs.

I don’t like my design.

I don’t like my…things

Just not good enough. Everything I do. Just not what I have in mind.

Ugh.

And then I got to this point where I could not see any point of letting it out. And it has been 2 months. 2 long months.

This week: We have just returned from a whole month in Jakarta trip, Jakarta is a stressing city for me, Charlie made a mess of our house. I cleaned like a crazy lady for the whole week, and suddenly I did not like anything here anymore, so I started moving the furniture around like mad hatter. Turning our house into one big mess.

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This morning.

I woke up at 6. Marco was still sleeping. It started to rain slowly. I made coffee in my kitchen. Turned on my computer. Charlie sleeping on the blue cushion next to me.

And the world just seems…quite right.

Yes.

I took some photos.

It is just a beginning. It is just me. It might not look nice. But it is okay.

I want to take more.

Sloooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy….

I wanted to make muffins.

I have NOT that muffin paper cups.

I baked them PAPERLESS in duralex glasses.

This makes me think: Why do we always put the paper when we bake muffins or cupcakes? Imagine six billions people eating one muffin…that is six billions paper trash! And how many trees died for this? And what is the purpose? Portability? I don’t think so. Even when you buy one muffin to take away in a cafe or bakery, the would always give you paper bag and napkins with it. I rarely see people carrying muffin just like that, even when they do, they still use napkin to hold it. So, why not paperless muffin? Imagine how many muffin I have already baked in my life? And how mindless I was?

I believe, being green should first be an attitude, not lifestyle.

And I believe, even by starting from little things like muffin paper we could reduce trash.

So, from now, I will always bake PAPERLESS MUFFINS.

I was thinking to give you recipes, but you know, the web is flooded enough with zillion of banana and chocolate muffins recipes :) I think you can just google it :) The thing is, just bake it…paperLESS :)

Love.

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No recipe? No…just some random shots of my life lately. It has been good (even there were moments I want to scream when it rained outside-IN! Yeah, our roof needed fixing, but it is ok now :) oh, plus a neighbour who play cheesy music all day, but that is ok too :)

I have a moody sky here, it is amazing how many times he changes in a day (I always feel sky is…a boy hehe) I might even called him BOY! Ha! Now I have a sky named Boy! and  So, what I cook is all depend on Boy, if Boy is happy, then sunny, then salad and light sides it is, if Boy is sad and crying alot, then a hearty risotto it is…you know what I mean. All I have in my kitchen is a bunch of good ingredients and no plan. It is how my life is now, and you can take a tiny peek of it through my lens :)

No, that’s not my foot, that’s marco’s, mine is much smaller :)

And yes, that is moody Boy, from my bedroom’s terrace

Butter+pan fried+salmon+black sesame seeds = quickie delicioooouuuuuusssssss :)

Silk smooth chocolate pudding with cream and fresh strawberry or coffee of top? Oh, can I have both please? :P

And say hello to some cute micro creatures around us :)

This is marco’s favourite! Tiny butterfly with white and purple wings!

This tree just had a haircut, but I still like him :)

And moody Boy is suddenly feeling happy, giving us some sun :)

And that is all for today…oh, are you leaving? So soon? Then please don’t forget to close the door…yes, it is pretty but no, my door is not a magic door that could bring you anywhere like doraemon’s…but, may be, if you really REALLY make wish and taping the heels of your red shoes three times…may be… :) xx

sometimes

there are so many things inside

I just cant let out

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love.black+white photography.